I have known this girl for three years. I don’t claim to have been the most perfect friend to her like Jesus was to me all my life, but I have loved her. I was in her life in one of its darkest moments. Since then, I’ve been in her life from a distance, checking in, a little love here, a deep prayer there. But from day one, I have seen God put His mark on her life that was evident when she didn’t want it or even see it herself.
From a distance, I watched one thing after another try to tear her down. Satan pulled her this way and that way with voices, threats, physical issues, and lies. He almost won, but God’s fingerprint never left. And while people on the sidelines either laughed, cried, or pointed fingers, Lion God rent open the Heavens, pushed back the demons of oppression, and growled, “Enough!” Finally, she was left alone, but not for long. He came to her, in her darkest hour, crumpled on the floor, totally spent of any earthly strength or power.
Amidst the flutter of angel wings at his sides and all around, His hand touched her head, and she felt Him come into her mortal soul and breathe eternity into it. His warm breath of favor stamped, “mine” on that smudged fingerprint, and it became clear as crystal again, just like the day He formed her, years ago.
“This is what I was made for!” Her heartbeat quickened and became stronger.
With a holy love that never fails, His touch came through Heaven to her earth and wiped away the sorrow of life without Him. She is never without Him again.
When Bri does something, good or bad, she does it with intensity. It’s part of her DNA. It may have taken her a while to give in to His love, but when she did, she did it with intensity and vibrancy all her own. People may judge her, they may not understand, and they may not think her faith is sincere or proper. (I myself was guilty of questioning whether Love really touched her.)
Man looks on the outside, but God looks at the heart. When I stopped putting up walls, being driven by feelings, and questioning God’s ways, I could actually see His fingerprint. When I put aside my ideas and opinions and asked God for His, suddenly I see His mark, just like I did in the beginning, except this time, it’s bigger and clearer. It’s in her eyes. It’s in her voice. It’s alive in her heart.
Sometimes the unexpected happens.
On June 11, 2013, Bri was diagnosed with Aids, which was transmitted to her from her biological parents. Then on August 22, she was diagnosed with an Aids related cancer called Kaposi’s Sarcoma. (Doctors say she may have had it for 2-4 years, but it’s not easily diagnosed because it looks like blood blisters.) She was given three months to live, give or take.
Tests results showed tumors throughout her body. Six were surgically removed, but the 16 others are inoperable. There are multiple tumors in her stomach/intestines, one in her neck beside her esophagus, and one behind her right lung. Doctors say if it begins to grow even a half inch, it will puncture her lung. If chemo or radiation is a choice Bri makes, doctors couldn’t legally begin the process until Sept. 16.
Ok, so that’s the medical standpoint of this situation. Thankfully God is able to do beyond anything we can ask or think.
Bri wants Jesus to be glorified by her life, and she has made a choice towards complete trust in her Father.
She is giving him a chance to heal her body. She made a choice towards Him, and she wants to give Him full access to her future. When God said, “If you really believe me like you say, show me,” she said “yes.”
Although God has allowed Satan a [limited] amount of influence to plan assignments against us, God has definitely commissioned believers to stop operating in that small realm of Satan’s influence and start operating in the unlimited realm of God’s power, which is an inheritance to those who come to Him. Satan seems big when cancer cells rage in our bodies, but God [created] the body, and unlimited authority is His!
Let me explain.
Satan is no creator. He is subject to a higher power. He can only work with what is always created by God. This is usually evidenced by him wreaking havoc to steal, kill, and destroy from God’s design.
We cannot afford to give Satan credit for creative design and power that belongs to God. Satan really isn’t all that great, you know. His power comes from our belief in a lie. Without our agreement, he remains a dog on a chain, with a big whine.
When we think we are simply victims to the hand life dealt us, isn’t it awfully hard to believe that God is good? We are afraid to ask for healing because if God is in charge of all things, He must want us to be sick, since He allowed it.
We messed up God’s perfect design by choosing Satan as our master in the garden. Satan tried convinced us that to obey him would make us like God, when we were already in His likeness. Satan was just jealous.
For years since then, we remained under that curse of sin and death, but when Jesus died on the cross, He broke the power of death and became the way to eternal life once more, starting now! Provision was made to live in the inheritance of God’s beloved.
Under the new covenant, God no longer requires that we bite the bullet and try, try, try to measure up for our restoration. We are now able to come boldly to His throne. In fact, we have gone from slaves of God (who only do as commanded) to friends of God, who have entered the holy place, the most intimate place with God’s heart. We know Him, and can have insight into what He’s doing.
Why the timidness? With the confidence that God is our friend, we are in a position to move the heart of God. Crazy, right? I know God’s heart is moved by Bri’s love and full surrender.
There is no more shame. Think of it, it was only after the first couple ate from the tree of knowledge of good and evil that shame and religion entered the planet. We operated on that hamster wheel system the best we could for hundreds of years. But Christ has bruised Satan’s head, and we are now free to walk intimately with God and co-labor for His purpose: to see His kingdom advance on the earth.
Satan’s weapons against us no longer have to prosper. It’s our choice whether we walk in this new opportunity. God is crazy about us, and is dying (no pun intended) to see us walk in our inheritance as co-laborers with his heart.
Join me in claiming Bri’s wellness for Christ. We declare that God’s favor is on her body, and we speak the health and wholeness of the King to every cell.
(At my wedding)
I know Bri doesn’t want pity, but what she does need is people to agree with her that God will win, and Satan will get no glory, because God already owns it. 🙂
I am so excited to see what God will do for Bri.
I’m leaning hard on the promises of Jesus. God is not done yet with my friend yet! He just got started.
I love you, Bri!
© Brenda Kanagy